Have you ever

Have you ever been interested in someone you know that you shouldn't get involved with?

There's this girl... I like her—and I feel there might be something special there—but there seems to be so many reasons not to pursue our growing relationship. The reasons are practical and common sense, but they're also very real ones.

Everyone always says that I should follow my heart and trust my feelings. And I believe this too. But now it just seems like I should know better. I still have bad feelings from my last relationship and I'm not sure I'm ready to date yet. I start feeling panicky when I think of getting into another relationship. The end was so tumultuos and hard last time. Sometimes I even shudder when I think of dating.

I don't what will happen. Right now I'm just letting things flow, doing what feels good. But I'm a little afraid of swimming out too far and not being able to swim back again.

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